Wake the F'ck up

In my 27 years of living I have laughed, I have cried, mourned in sorrow. Shed pain and experienced the most thrilling of highs (take that in how you want to). Have loved and lost. Have lost many to violence and corruption. I have learned to take every day as is and make the most of it. About enjoying in the moments you can, and thanking your losses.

I have found that life is more than just being, it's about living. It is about the human experience. It is about experiencing emotion, hurt, anger, laughter, joy. Life is about learning, finding meaning within your day, and purpose for living. Life is about so much more than what you do. It's about the world around, and being able to find solitude within the chaos we call life.

LIFE IS ABOUT WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR OTHERS, NOT WHAT OTHERS CAN DO FOR YOU. Taking lesson within each circumstance be it good or bad, because it's all part of it. Attaining wisdom as you grow and loving what you do. Some days you win, some days you lose; put forth who you are everyday. Do YOU, but know that you are part of how a whole world works.

-C. Alvarez

It's like Imprisonment of the Mind‏

A disgustingly mad trick of the mind. A way of dying slowly. Cells in the body being engorged with toxins that kill the state of being. It's as if your energy being sucked alive as your skin slowly withers away. It is the inability to express, to speak, to feel and a question of beliefs. It's like imprisonment, only worst; it is the thought that your whole life is controlled by negativity.

My take on the daily negatives in life..

-C. Alvarez

Coming to terms

It seems that living life as if it were a video reel has seemed to work. It shuts off potential feelings and or attachments to unworthy causes and things. The feelings of hurt, fear, anxiety, nervousness now all seem to be just nouns; simply descriptive words.

I believe now more than ever that emotion is fully controlled by thought, and thought is limitless. It takes a certain amount of time spent in one's own mind to tap into otherwise unchartered territory; or what some may say is the impossible.

Thought is creative. It is mindless, yet mind numbing. Thought is the center of your being, thought is poetic. It can become disastrous while artistic. Thought is a science unknown the depths even to man. Thought is a process, an acceptance of life. It becomes and engulfs you, your thoughts are you.

Dream alive.

And if my life ended now...

And if my life ended now, I would go down with my head high. My hand will be raised and gratitude for my days. I've lived twice and around, wise beyond my years. It came from a past lifetime, something you nor I can begin to understand. With no regret of my actions and decisions, no time to turn back, for the clock is moving forward. Lie and be still, do nothing, let death take its course. And if my life ended now, know my presence will never die. My legend will live on, my soul, survive.

-C. Alvarez

Then it hits you..

We were always taught to follow order. That life was clear cut, it was black and white with no shades beyond. They put us in this institution and give us a system in which to live by. Then one day you grow and life's ugly realities face you. What do you do then? What happens when that same system you've grown and lived by fails you. Beyond a straight line of living there are other worlds. Worlds that may seem ugly to you, but is the daily norm for other people. The world is full of harsh realities, ones in which many never have to face. The world is cold, and outside yourself there are many more characters. There is much to be seen in this world, to be heard, to be discovered, stories to be written. Maybe one day you see outside of the borders that have divided your mind from those that are different.
C. Alvarez